Keep Calm and Love Brooke

 It's just a regular work day for me...when I look at the clock and for some reason...when I looked at it and realized that is was only 3:00 p.m. I felt something was wrong. Although I didn't know why...I was at Skyline High School...in the computer lab subbing. I just couldn't shake the feeling that something was wrong. The last time I had this feeling my sister, Steph, was involved in a car wreak that almost took her life. I figured that it was maybe do to the fact that there were some Freshman boys who were trying out my patience and that was why I felt off.. Well..lets fast forward 2 hours later..when I received a phone call from my mom. I was really not looking forward to this conversation because she ends up re-telling me the same stories loads of times...and it's hard for me to remain impartial when she is telling me her financial situation and to whom she loans money too.  To sum up this conversation...she tells me that at around 3:00p.m. my Dad turned and

It's been almost 2 months since I've jumped on here. I'd like to say that it's been super crazy at our house ( which I have found always to be accurate) or that nothing really has been worth blogging about. But in all honesty, friends....I just haven't felt like myself. The holidays were SUPER hard for me this year. I just didn't want to go anywhere or do anything. I had several days where I didn't want to leave the house..or change out of my comfy cloths. Or even go visit family.  It seemed like EVERYWHERE I turned there were pregnant women all around...flaunting their un-comfortableness. ( They probably weren't at all but to me that is how I saw it) The depression of loosing this baby was setting in hard core. For a couple of weeks my haven....my spiritual uplifting ward....was torture. I hated doing to church. It was so hard..for me..to sit there. And for loving friends to ask me how I was doing and if I needed anything. Needed to talk...or just

It has been a really long time since I have blogged last and I know that I said I was going to blog about Girls Camp..but I will eventually get to that..but these last 2 weeks have been so hard. Like harder than normal...I felt myself wanting to give in and give up to the pain in my heart.  I thought that this latest trial would break me...I feel as though I have noghting left to give. What am I suppose to learn from this that I haven't already learned from the last one. Well...I'll start from the beginning to get you guys caught up. I am a substitute teacher and I was subbing for my son's class for about 3 weeks because his teacher had to have surgery and she was out for a while. So I'm subbing for this teacher who is great and I sometimes wonder if I'm even qualified to fill her shoes cuz guys teaching is H.A.R.D!!! And I've known most of these kids for a while...I subbed last year for and so for the most part I'm pretty comfortable with the kids...

I can hardly believe that summer vacation is almost over! It doesn't seem like it's been 3 months but it  is time for me to go back to work. Well in 1 more week...I totally will.  But until then I will try to fit in as much as I can about our summer and all of the fun we had as a family. So there will probably be a ton of fun pictures to upload and talk about....oh...I was able to go to Girls' Camp with my oldest daughter and a bunch of fun girls from our ward.. I'm pretty sure that will have to be posted on its own. (there are a lot of pictures) We  did the Firecracker 5K this year...and I did it with my Aunt Brittany, and Ken. There was also another friend Natalie that did it too....but I don't know what I was thinking and I didn't get any pictures of that race...I know that Ken did. My time went up from last year. Last year my time was 33.11 this year it was 34:07. Oh Well...I'm really only competing with myself.  So next year that is my time to beat. 

Sorry to leave every one on a cliff hanger but life keeps me pretty busy. So almost 2 weeks goes by and I had to wait for my mammogram and ultra sound. In between those two weeks I had to keep my mind busy so I was busy working and with my calling. My YW president told us during one our monthly meetings that she had been diagnosed with breast cancer and that she had to meet with an oncologist and they were going to look into a mastectomy and the reason she was telling us was so that we all knew what was going on with her.. I know when it rains it pours...but thankfully she found out that after her surgery that they got all the cancer OUT and she will not have to undergo Chemo or Radiation Therapy. I am so happy for her! The morning of the mammogram had finally come. And although there was the worry in the back of my mind...ever since  I had the blessing my mind felt at ease and I knew that I would be ok. That the Lord would keep his word if I just remember to have Faith and to k

In May I went in to the Dr. office for my yearly exam and to refill those pesky Thyroid medicine, because let's face it...when I don't have that medicine...I'm not my self and I yell and snap at people (my kids) all the time...since I do not like feeling that way it's best that I stay on top of having enough of those pills. I call them my happy pills...because they make me feel normal..like how I used to before I had all my kids.. Sorry....I forgot where I was in my story... OH yeah. So I knew that my appointment was coming up. One day before I got into the shower...I was examining my breast and I paused for about a minute..."Is that a.....LUMP?!" Then I noticed that I thought I had seen some rippling on the other side I DO know that seeing rippling of any kind in the breasts...is not a good thing.  At the end of April, I was preparing that week to issue ISAT testing for school District #91 so I really couldn't call out...I thought well...I know I hav